rules.

i understand parents need rules, but ones that actually hurt you are really stupid. i can't sleep cuz of insomnia yet i have to go to bed at 10:30 and just sit there cant do anything else. i have emotional problems a bit suicidal and all that when i feel really bad i cant even talk to anyone because guess what no phone or computer after 10 at all they even check my bill to see what times and who i talk to. i break down alot and all my friends say i could call them if i was ever feeling down but im not even allowed to talk to my best friends. im not allowed to hang out with just one person even if its at my house with my parents, if it is more then one person there has to be at least one girl i guess thats reasonable but it sucks cuz all my friends are guys and they will bring their girlfriends so we can hang out but then i just become the third wheel. oh and im not allowed to date either sheltered much? but i am allowed to get a tattoo and my nose pierced and dress how i like and dye my hair and mom even said when im ready for sex she will go take me to the docter and help me be prepared but no i cant date or hang out with guy friends. i also cant start a band im too young for that apparently, i cant even have a video camera or a youtube account to publicize my songs i could be famous right now :p i know they love me but ever since my step dad came it ruined the balance between uptight mom and relaxed dad now its just uptight and uptigher ~sigh but i cant really do much until im 18 only 3 more years till life begins :D